We can’t be certain about most everything in life. I’m not any different from you or anyone. I have stress about worrying about what my future holds just like you. Whether it is about what you’re doing next month, next year, or even tomorrow. For me It’s always about my major. But I think all of this stress might just be starting to release its strangle hold it has on my life. And it really is about time.. Although I know it will never be completely gone, It definitely is getting better.
The other day I one of my roommates and I went to a surprise birthday party for one of our friends roommates. I basically met and hung out with three to five (I cannot remember exactly) architecture students that are actually in studio and in the program. We got to talking and I told them how much I would love to be in the program and how I don’t really know what else I would do with my life if architecture wasn’t an option. They generally seemed interested in what classes I was taking which comprise of ARCH226 an architectural history class and ARTT110 a building and perspective drawing class in order to get ready for ARCH242 an architectural drafting class in the fall. They all generally said the same thing that if I keep up with this attitude I have-which is “I have to be doing it better than everyone else” I should be in good shape and that taking this art class is a great idea. They kept telling me that studio is hell and that you stay there sometimes until 3 in the morning, have your design projects torn to shreds, and generally have no life. But the thing about it is I want all of these things. Truly. I do.
Okay maybe not the feeling of being the worlds worse designer but you get my idea here..
And these encounters have gotten me thinking over the past few days. I know what I want. I know what I have to do to achieve it. I have a burning passion for architecture. I want nothing else as a career choice. Talking to these studio students made me feel better about the program and my chances about getting accepted in the winter of next year. If you want something you have to work at it with all the energy you have, giving up is not an option. I will fight with every fiber in my being to have the best application/portfolio in the winter.
“The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will.” ~Vince Lombardi
I feel better about this than I have in the past but I still worry a lot. I guess that’s just who I am and I suppose we all worry about things we deeply care about. I know that the road ahead of me is not an easy one. It is one filled with hard work, dedication and a lack of sleep. But if I truly want this I have to roll up the sleeves and quit worrying soo much because in the end if I put forth all my energy and heart into this goal it will all work out in the end. One way or another… It will work out. Just gotta keep the hard work and faith train a rollin’ and see where it takes me.